Medicine land

Even if I am a pill person I'm not a doctor person...so I kinnda had to go see the doctors before leaving. It's probably a good thing I did because I found out a lot of scary things...which might have gotten worse whilst I was gone. It's pretty expensive to go see a doctor across the border...and I'm not going to have a health insurance that covers everything. I didn't finish my doctor tour because I don't have that much time and I didn't even get the right treatment for what I found out yet. I thought I was a psychopath for taking pills but it seams I was half right. Anyway I'm not going to die and my organs are where they should be and the way they should be. :)One of the doctors told me to stop taking vitamins and calcium and things like that...because sometimes they harm you more than do you good. Maybe this will be a good way to get rid of this little obsession - even though they never killed me. When I was little and took all those things I managed to survive :))...so why shouldn't I survive now...but...ups...I'm talking bout pills - pills...not pills - drugs. That's not for me and will never be.

Happy birthday little Bee!

Friday, the 1st of August was a special day for me. It was my sister's birthday. She turned 11… so she’s a big girl now. She had some friends over and they dressed with my clothes and put on make up like big girls. They listened to music, fought with pillows and ate cake. This was her birthday I attended in many years. I usually wasn't home during this period so it was an even bigger surprise. The next day she told me she feels a little bit weird...like she's bigger and has more responsibilities and she's trying to act like a big girl now. :P

I had a really nice weekend and it isn't over yet. I visited my grandparents for the last time before leaving yesterday. My cousin was there too and she started crying because she'll never see me again :))Also my grand grandmother recognized me and it gave me a great feeling but then I realized that this might have been the last time I saw her alive and it made me really sad. It's confusing to imagine me loving an 90 something year old woman more than anything...but I do and it would break my heart not to be able to attend her funeral.

But sometimes you have to loose something to get something else in return. It's the worse to miss people but it makes you feel human and makes you have hope and will to go further. The internet helped me find one of my best friends i never thought i would ever talk to. My friend from Kiev, Ania, found my blog on Google. This was the best thing that happened to me this week and it proves that every time you go down faith gives you a little push up. I am surrounded by people I really love and even if things are going like I would like to with all of them maybe some day they will.

The dark knight

Last night I went to see Batman: the dark knight. It was the best action movie I've seen in a while. Without any exaggerated images, no Matrix type movements...just a simple action movie with action heroes. I admit that some of the scenes were a little fiction-dumbass are you blind like but it was a movie so what could have I expected :). Anyway Heath Ledger did the role of his life in this movie, he was the best, and he basically made the whole movie through his character, the Joker. Batman was a little pathetic some times with his deep voice and superhero moments. I couldn’t help laughing and talking through out the movie. I admit I'm a terrible person to go see a movie with, because I am noisy.

The evening was ruined by a stupid taxi driver…but let's not go there. I don't what to remember the scene and I don't want to go into other beautiful things about this city that others might consider an act of superiority towards the people I am forced to leave surrounded by.

Anyway, if you get the chance to see the movie, see it at a cinema because it rocks :).