Happy birthday little Bee!

Friday, the 1st of August was a special day for me. It was my sister's birthday. She turned 11… so she’s a big girl now. She had some friends over and they dressed with my clothes and put on make up like big girls. They listened to music, fought with pillows and ate cake. This was her birthday I attended in many years. I usually wasn't home during this period so it was an even bigger surprise. The next day she told me she feels a little bit weird...like she's bigger and has more responsibilities and she's trying to act like a big girl now. :P

I had a really nice weekend and it isn't over yet. I visited my grandparents for the last time before leaving yesterday. My cousin was there too and she started crying because she'll never see me again :))Also my grand grandmother recognized me and it gave me a great feeling but then I realized that this might have been the last time I saw her alive and it made me really sad. It's confusing to imagine me loving an 90 something year old woman more than anything...but I do and it would break my heart not to be able to attend her funeral.

But sometimes you have to loose something to get something else in return. It's the worse to miss people but it makes you feel human and makes you have hope and will to go further. The internet helped me find one of my best friends i never thought i would ever talk to. My friend from Kiev, Ania, found my blog on Google. This was the best thing that happened to me this week and it proves that every time you go down faith gives you a little push up. I am surrounded by people I really love and even if things are going like I would like to with all of them maybe some day they will.