The dark knight

Last night I went to see Batman: the dark knight. It was the best action movie I've seen in a while. Without any exaggerated images, no Matrix type movements...just a simple action movie with action heroes. I admit that some of the scenes were a little fiction-dumbass are you blind like but it was a movie so what could have I expected :). Anyway Heath Ledger did the role of his life in this movie, he was the best, and he basically made the whole movie through his character, the Joker. Batman was a little pathetic some times with his deep voice and superhero moments. I couldn’t help laughing and talking through out the movie. I admit I'm a terrible person to go see a movie with, because I am noisy.

The evening was ruined by a stupid taxi driver…but let's not go there. I don't what to remember the scene and I don't want to go into other beautiful things about this city that others might consider an act of superiority towards the people I am forced to leave surrounded by.

Anyway, if you get the chance to see the movie, see it at a cinema because it rocks :).

Horton hears a Who!

I saw the movie a few months ago when it appeared - like any Romanian - illegally from the internet. The idea of the movie struck me. It's an animated, children movie, with fluffy animals and a funny story. Still it makes you think about what we are and where we live. The idea is that an elephant, one of Earth's biggest creatures catches a spec of dust on a plant (or whatever that is). The story is about how the elephant, Horton, saves the WHO world in the spec of dust. The fate of a whole world, civilization is in the hands of this great creature. I don't know if there is a certain message the director of the movie wanted to send out or he just made a random funny animated story. Anyway, none of my friends watched it…because it's a kids movie...so I wasn't able to get any feedbacks on my thoughts. Maybe I'm going too far with my thoughts. Lately I had this thing about not being alone in the Universe. First I listened to the sound the Earth makes

 

...and then I heard these news about some ex NASA astronauts saying that they've been contacted by aliens...NASA did not confirm this but didn't deny it either. And then the Discovery documentary on the people making crop circles and models like these: 

...that sounded pretty credible - they admited the fact that not aliens are the creators of crop circles but people with extrasensorial features receiving all sort of signals on patterns they build in one night without knowing...So what's going on and when will we be advanced enough to face reality as it is :)

My very special little corner of life

This Saturday was Irina's first weekend in Bucharest so me and Ana took her out. Where else than in Terminus...our new little corner of life. Though most of the people going there aren't what I would call our type of people we enjoy it because since Ana started working there we befriended the employees and it started feeling like home. It's not very exciting but at least we can dance how we want to and not care about the other people, we can drink for free and request for different songs. It was really nice this time too. I was a little bit tired because on Saturday morning I went to Ana's gym :))..but still we danced all night long. We left at around 5 AM and went to eat something at Everest. Of course after eating we recharged our batteries and weren’t so sleepy so we got home well. It was really sweet because we slept all three in Ana's bed and woke up together...eat together...:(...I'm really going to miss them and these times. I know they will always be here and listen to all the crap I have in my brain and stand me as obsessed and childish as I am...but I am going to miss them and will not be able to replace them as much as the selfish me would maybe like to.

Welcome back?!

My friend Irina just returned from her Erasmus in Padova Italy. She was a Romanian/Bucharest loving person but now she had the same reaction as I always do when I return to this shithole. I don't know if it's the fact that every time I left the country I was either on holiday or simply away from home/parents/responsibilities or the fact that every time I wnet out of the airport I saw the people, the dirt and the lack inspiration the city has. I am very happy she returned because I missed her a lot and I’ll try to spend as much time as I can with her because then I'll be leaving and who knows when I’ll return. Still I hope she won't adjust back to Bucharest and get used to all the..... (I can't find the right word to explain it)... and she’ll wish to leave again. Maybe she could move to Italy, I'd rather visit her there than here :P.

The fact that she saw her return with the same eyes I see my every return proves to me that this country is hopeless and it's getting worse. I think you can't even make a difference now between gypsies and Romanians, they all look the same, dress the same, listen to the same music. If you're on the bus and you look around you one out of 10 people looks and smells decent. If they have money they don't have style or brain and if they have style and brain they are poor but willing to work and fight the system till it kills them or swallows them. I don't see a future in Romania and Romania doesn't see a future for me. That is why I decided never to return. I took this decision when I was 12, when I first saw the world over the boarders and I'm getting closer and closer to fulfilling it. The question is where…with who…in what way...as a Romanian or as a European citizen?!

Tattoo

Today I got a new tattoo. I really liked the idea and I had to do it. Even if it's maybe simple and stupid I think it's sweet. Maybe it's not the smartest thing to do but at least this one it's well hidden :P I will probably erase my lucky star in some years but at least I'll have this one left.

Terminus again

Last night I went to Terminus again with Ana. She was dancing so I thought that since I didn't go out in a while it would be a good idea to join her. And so it was :)...the other girl who was suppose to dance with her last night didn't come. Since I haven't been out in a while I had extreme energy and I was in a great dancing mood. Because it's not such a large club I got to know most of the staff...so I felt rather comfortable. I danced all night long with short brakes because I was sweating so badly that I had to drink a lot of water. The nice part is that Geo, the supervisor, paid me as if I was working that night. So not only did I get to dance however I felt like but I also got paid for this. It gives you a nice feeling when you make money for something you enjoy and would do anyway. This is a general thought, I'm not saying that I will become a dancer now :p but maybe I should make a list of the things I enjoy doing and would do even if I would be paid to...At the moment I am half dead - half alive because I also did some Tae Bo with Ana this morning...soon my body will go on stand by.

R.I.P.

Yesterday I found my little white mousy dead. I am sorry this happened she was very sweet. I think the hot weather killed her because she was a snow Siberian hamster. She bit me yesterday morning when I went to work, I think she was really sad and sick or something like that. I just hope the boy will not die too...This is my second mouse that dies…anyway the first one was a rat...but I shouldn't probably buy any rodens in the future though I really like them. Snifers!

Lolita - the she-devil

I started rereading my favorite book after I saw the movie for 50 times till now - Lolita by Vladimir Nabukov. I don't know what attracts me most about this story - the way Humbert describes the innocent body of a young girl or the fact that I would like to be one of his so imagined nymphets. The lust and power the book sends out is greater than the action presented in any love, action, romance etc. movie or book. It is unique in the way it makes you read more and more wishing to be Humbert and feel the ultimate feeling of forbidden love. The girls are described like goddesses and it makes you wish you'd be one of Humbert's sins...you'd be a fragile Lolita. I always felt attracted to forbidden and impossible love stories and even I have my own innocent sin. A sin which haunts me and which I can't explain or talk about.

I find peace and relaxation in this book as it makes me feel free and special. It makes me forget all the bad experiences and helps me puke all my memories like a bad vertigo feeling. The fact that it talks about impossible, unexacting love, that ends in a bad way proves that I am attracted to such "happy" endings.

I recommend the book to anyone searching for what lust means.

Chaos

I'm in total chaos and it's not good. As Alex said - my external obsession for order is the reverse image of the chaos in my mind. I'm in confusion, without control. Things happen too fast around me and I don't know how to react towards them. It's like I'm in a roller coaster, going up and down and unable to stop the hops. I need a moment of silence and I wish the world could freeze for a second so I can look at everybody and try to find myself within them. I need somebody to tell me that everything is ok…and that somebody can only be me. I don't know who to trust and I don't know if I'm having fun and living or just going on in a critical routine. I need to find myself and start believing in me...I should probably stop trying to view myself as others do and try setting myself free...even if this means changing my ways and becoming extremely selfish...worse then I am now. If I could leave the only person I felt good around from time to time I can probably also loose all the extra feelings and thoughts I get from the ones around me. I don't know what friends are for and why we need them, other that satisfying our own selfish needs (laughing, joking, going out, telling them what's bothering us and what's making us happy...in one word relaxing)...and if friends are a good excuse for being selfish that why shouldn't I be like that all the way and stop trying to find solutions for them and think about what they do and why. I am probably a fake person just because I'm saying these things but I'm tired of feeling...in vain.

Wacky weekend

I had a very wacky weekend at it isn't over yet.

1st - Friday
Work as usual...it might sound boring but it isn't actually for me - it makes such a difference when you are working somewhere you like and not just waking up every morning to go to your same old boring job :D Oh yeah...the nice part about Friday was that I had a slumber party with my sister and Cata and her sisters over at her house...I was extremely tired but we hung out and had a funny Friday evening with nail polish, food, ice cream, make up, movies and Saturday Night Live :)

2nd - Saturday
I went to driving school after not a full night of sleep :)...and hmmm I drove pretty well even if I was tired. I really enjoy driving I think I'm gonna be a race car driver when I grow up. After that I went to the mall with Ana because...we had to make reservations for...tattoos :D Surprisingly I really did it this time too, I still have time to make up my mind but I won't cause it's sweet and it will make me feel sweet :)Then we went through the desert like weather, and we walked in the sun like two snakes crawling to find shadow…I could actually feel my feet burning on the pavement..we sat for a nice freshly squeezed juice at Green Hours and than returned to her house...where surprise I got sick because of the sun. So in a brilliant moment of absolute smartness I puked. Ana had to work so she took me home where I slept for...a lot of hours...

3rd - Sunday
A day full of nothing

Oh no...I actually will!!!

In about 56 days starting today I will be on an airplane above Bucharest…where to?!...it's simple...to my new life. It will be something like - my life without me...except I will not be dead but gone :). My friends and family will still be here, carrying on with their lives while I will be remembered and talked about from time to time. While my life will continue in Bucharest through other peoples words I will be away, on the other side of Europe, in the North to be exact, trying to tell and continue my life in other languages.

Am I scared?!...hell yes I am. I get the same feeling every time I board on a plane and I am going to get it now too…for sure. I will most likely feel sad and lonely for a couple of days because I won't know anybody, and I will be tired and confused. But then I get to personalize my space :D and start finding people that suit me or which at least could be changed by me to be like me, maybe that's why God made humans by his own image, because he was felling lonely and frustrated in this new place he started hanging over :P

At the moment I'm just getting spiritually ready to see my new room, my new friends and get new habits. Fingers crossed for me :D

In Romania...you live like a dog - you die like a dog

Scandal la morga din Găeşti: O familie şi-a luat mortul plin de viermi

Familia unui tânăr decedat îi acuză pe medicii legişti de la morga spitalului din oraşul dâmboviţean Găeşti că nu iau măsuri astfel încât cadavrele aduse la autopsie să nu se descompună din cauza căldurii, fiind ţinute la temperaturi de peste 30 de grade, fără aer condiţionat sau lăzi frigorifice.

Familia unui tânăr de 28 de ani, din comuna dâmboviţenă Mogoşani, sat Cojocaru, spune că a primit, luni, într-un sac de plastic, cadavrul descopus al acestuia, după ce a fost ţinut mai bine de 48 de ore la morga Spitalului din Găeşti, într-o caldură insuportabilă.

Tânărul, Marian Dragomir, a murit în urma unui infarct în timp ce muncea la construcţia propriei case, cadavrul acestuia fiind dus, sâmbătă, la morgă, unde a stat până luni, când a fost făcută autopsia.

"L-au ţinut la Găeşti mai bine de 48 de ore, într-un grajd, nu au cameră frigorifică. Vinovat este medicul de gardă, care l-a primit şi inspectorul de la Poliţie care nu a anunţat medicina legală să vină să-i facă autopsia. Am anuntaţ-o eu ieri (n.r.-luni) la 10.30. Practic l-am luat cu viermi de la morgă", a declarat, marţi, Marin Tănase, unchiul tânărului.

"Suntem un popor creştin ortodox şi la orice înmormantare trebuie îndeplinit un ritual, adică mortul să fie spălat şi îmbrăcat. Din cauza unor instituţii ale statului nu am putut duce la îndeplinire acest ritual. Am înţeles că este plin de viermi", a declarat primarul comunei Mogoşani, Angelică Marinel.

Potrivit managerului Spitalului Orăşenesc Găeşti, Cristina Seltea, morga nu poate fi dotată cu aparatură de răcire din lipsă acută de fonduri.

"Fiind tânăr, am pus sub semnul întrebării decesul lui şi în astfel de cazuri este obligatoriu examenul medico-legal. Trebuie solicitată Poliţia, Poliţia solicită medicina legală. Până la consultul medico-legal, mortul stă în mod normal la morga spitalului. Normal că pe căldura aceasta, morga nefiind dotată cu aparate de aer condiţionat şi nici cu ladă frigorifică, cadavrul a ajuns într-o stare degradată până să fie consultat. Ne confruntăm cu lipsa fondurilor", a declarat managerul Spitalului Orăşenes Găeşti, Seltea Cristina.

Wanted

Yesterday I went to see Wanted on the big screens. I didn't know that much about the movie but since I haven't been to the cinema in a while I decided to go see it since everybody made such a big fuss about it. And a fuss it was...the whole movie marketing has been made around Angelina Jolie who is just a random actor in the movie, she's not the main focus but she is the best looking one :) Anyway I can't say it was spectacular, it was just like any other action movie, with lots of special effects and action-drama. I hope Hancock will be better :) At least I got to eat popcorn and laugh.