To live, love, laugh, hug & cry

Tomorrow I will send home the first part of my life in Aarhus, a box of clothing and books.

I am so bad at keeping in touch with people. My Mexican friend, David went to Taiwan this week and met with my Taiwaness freind, Peggy...for me they both became people I answer to from time to time... forgetting the fun times we had together. I do this with all the friends separated from me by distance. I am afraid that this will happen with the friends I have now too :(...I know it will. I always promise to write and I never do...The riot in Chisinau reminded me of my MIRC friend Calin...I was so close to him at some point and I enjoyed talking to him...but then I don't know when everything stooped ..and now I don't know and I have no way of finding out if he's ok or not. I guess this makes me a bad friend and a bad person...I am too spoiled by the people around me...I should be ignored for a time and maybe then I will start reaching.

Today I gave permission to my parents to euthanise my dog, if they consider necessary. So on Saturday they will probably take her to the vet...and this is one of the most painful decisions I had to take in my life... controlling a life. I know she will not get better...and I know she will die and suffer an agonising pain before that. I hate this and I don't even want to imagine it...as selfish as it may sound...I am happy not to be there. I've took decisions over other lives before, but it has never been so painful...I will not buy a pet for a long time...

It should be normal for me by now to loose what I love because of time and distance...but it never stops hurting...

Culturaly

April is here and it brought along the super long and warm spring days. Finally some life in Denmark. How it looks?! Well…some already wear summer shoes, light clothes, sun glasses…convertible cars and motorbikes everywhere…along the river in the centre people are sitting with their faces in the sun…all in all…super chillin’. It sounds, looks and feels perfect when the sun is in your face while cycling home. Unfortunately my chronicle laryngitis is back and I can’t enjoy to the maximum. I was a bit voiceless these days, now it’s only in the morning and the evening…and the bad part is that I don’t have pills….I have to use natural stuff to treat it, ginger tea and honey and lemon, which is totally unusual for me…I need my pills damn it!

To get the best out of these wonderful days and since Iveta (Marketa’s friend) was here, and I get along very well we her, we decided to get a cultural view of Aarhus. And so, we went to some museums and the theater.

Aros (this is some sort of national art museum – very good, but again since it’s national it’s Danish).

Steno Museum (the university's museum of Science and Medical - where we did a lot of experiments on ourselves and even entered a vagina where you would heare the sounds a baby hears...it was a really good museum).

The last AAITC play was called "Crime on Goat island" and just like the last play we went to, it was very much focused on women. But this time it was a bit evil. Anyway...a great way to end the week.

I remember that, before leaving, somebody laughed at me when I said that I want to save the world. My thoughts were considered foolish and immature and the laughter made me feel embarrassed about my own dreams. Now, I am sorry about feeling ashamed…I should have stood straight and argue my case. What are we without culture, feelings, and the environment around us (animals, plants, stars etc.). Nothing. If we all have a goal on this planet than somebody must try to save them too, right?! Since when did thinking about something else than making money become immature and foolish!? I am also driven by money, and I truly accept that as a strong feature of my character…but this doesn't mean that I believe in them.

I am totally in love with the people around me. I feel myself as a different person since I am here. I don't mind people eating in bed, scrubbing the food from their plates and making sounds...I don't mind a lot of the things that irritated me at home. I am way more relaxed and non judgemental. I take people as they are...and I am starting to take on the whole Jante law thing with "sorry" and "thank you" all the time, and it makes me feel good...though I would be considered a fool in other places. I don't know if this should make me feel good or bad...but the thought of changing now frightens me when I think about returning home...I actually cannot believe that it is April...my 8th month of Denmark and 2 months away from returning home...a thing which brings chills down my spine...I am truly afraid of returning home now...I pray to get my internship in Spain.

I *heart* Kobenhavn

To get rid of my demons I hit the train to Copenhagen, for another grand escape. The city of Copenhagen is absolutely gorgeous. I loved the vibe of a capital city, cars, people, noise and diversity. It's not Bucharest when it comes to traffic and crowd, but at least it's better than Aarhus. I totally enjoyed it and the weather was perfect. I could not stop smiling and enjoying. I left Aarhus on Friday, early morning by train and returned on Saturday evening by bus/ferry. We slept in a good hotel/hostel called Jorgensen in a 12 people room, with some French people, and a good breakfast for only 150 kr/night.

This is definitely a must see European capital. Still Stockholm is better :P.

The little mermaid (someone did a heart graffiti on the stone under the mermaid).

The National Museum (actually the best museum I have ever been in…it's perfect and full of cultural vibes, even if it's mainly Danish culture).

The Merman and his 7 sons (According to a Danish folk legend, Agnete was a young peasant girl who was walking by the shore as a merman emerged from the waves and offered her his hand. Agnete fell in love with him immediately and went to the bottom of the sea with him, where she gave birth to his seven sons. After eight years, however, as she was sitting by the crib of her youngest son, Agnete heard the sound of churchbells ringing from her old village, and she felt homesick. She got permission from the merman to go to church, on the one condition that she would come back to him after mass. But of course, once on land again, Agnete found that she missed the church and her family too much, and she wouldn't return. In Suste Bonnén’s sculpture, the merman and his seven sons are pleading for Agnete to return to them, stretching out their arms towards her).

Christiania (Freetown Christiania is a partially self-governing neighbourhood of about 850 residents in the borough of Christianshavn in the Danish capital Copenhagen. Christiania has established semi-legal status as an independent community, but has been a source of controversy since its creation in a squatted military area in 1971. Its open cannabis trade was tolerated by authorities until 2004. Since then, measures for normalising the legal status of the community have led to conflicts, and negotiations are ongoing.Among many Christiania residents, the community is known as staden ('the town'), short for fristaden ('the freetown').

Carlsberg factory/museum (I am not a big fun of beer, but I just found my favourite - Carl's Ale - it left a sweet honey taste in my mouth...mmm...delicious...and I found the Carl Jacobsen initially used the swastika as the symbol for Carlsberg in 1908 - this is a symbol of luck in the Viking culture and other cultures, as well as the Jewish star - which he considered the alchemy symbol for beer).