Tuesday, June 15, 2010

To kill an inner child

History tought us that in the years that pasted, humans fought long lasting, bloody battles for pieces of land or ideologies. Assuming that humans evolved into a less ignorant creature, these battles stopped, or at least are better hidden behind great words such as human rights, ecology etc. - different debate...

These days we are so good at hiding, that we even hide murder. A lot of the people around me go by with no jail time or even a fine for killing their inner child. Worst, there are a lot others who try to convince that this is a wise path to take. I love Romania...but I am afraid that the country has only a handful of people who are able to truly relax and do stupid things...stupid to gown ups, but natural to children. It's stupid to do anything that a child would do, I guess laughing will soon be declared stupid in this country, or even out side the law. I live in a sad place, and try desperately to surround myself with people who still see Tinkerbell. 

What brings me to anxiety, is that among my closest ones, I find those trying to rip you inside and dig hard to kill your spirit, because theirs died a long time ago. I would die without being clumsy, stupid, innocent...but most of all happy! The thought of being a zombie, a shadow frightens me...