I don't know if it's the fact that I leaving tomorrow or the fact that I had the best days ever why I'm feeling so relaxed and lazy. As I was saying before life takes you places you never thought you would ever end up in. My past 25 days have been more than I could ever ask for. I'm sad they are ending but I'm happy they happened and I know they are just a beginning.
The first part of the ride was in 2 Mai, Vama Veche and Mangalia with Irina and Ana. Though I didn't stay with the two of them this year, ruining our tradition, we tried to follow the staying in Vama Vache till the morning comes and sleeping on the beach at sunrise part. It wasn't as fun as it usually is because I guess we kind of got bored of the same songs and tequila drinking part. But it all got even because of him. We woke up together for the first time and it was fun…no not fun...but warm. We went with the motorcycle and it was my first long trip on it. It was also a trip I never took when going to the seaside. I saw the most beautiful sunset in my life. Again I was mesmerized of what life can do to you and what things you might miss along the way if you refuse to look around.
Probably the fact that I was leaving so soon made us both open up as much as possible and give the other a good preview of what we could be. I tried avoiding making a psychological profile of the person I'm leaving with but than again I realized it's best to do it because this way I will have no unanswered questions in my mind while I'm away. The problem is that this quest has made me fall in love for real and now my heart will be split worse than it would before. It's really difficult to leave behind more than you were ready to at some point and it makes the trip difficult and bumpy. But at the same time I think it's a great test which we have to pass before saying yes and I love you with a full glow in our eyes.
When my parents got back and we couldn't stay together anymore we had to leave and run into the world. So we decided to go somewhere where with shame I must admit I've never been before: Brasov-Sibiu-Sighisoara. It was a full breath of air I could take in Romania. These are three great places one shouldn't only visit but also dream of leaving in. You feel like at home but with a different view of what home is.
My return from the trip meant saying goodbye to the people I love one by one. I don't want to remind myself because I don't want to get tears in my eyes again. There is one person I know I'm never going to see again and maybe this is the best for her - my grand grand mother. I never thought it was going to be so heartbreaking to just say goodbye. I guess I have to get really pissed and angry to never want to see any of these people anymore, ever in my life. I'm glad I'm leaving things behind me pretty settled and I'm glad the feedback was good because I know than no matter what I decide to do later I can always return to a handful of people opened to accept me back in their hearts and homes.