My very special little corner of life

This Saturday was Irina's first weekend in Bucharest so me and Ana took her out. Where else than in Terminus...our new little corner of life. Though most of the people going there aren't what I would call our type of people we enjoy it because since Ana started working there we befriended the employees and it started feeling like home. It's not very exciting but at least we can dance how we want to and not care about the other people, we can drink for free and request for different songs. It was really nice this time too. I was a little bit tired because on Saturday morning I went to Ana's gym :))..but still we danced all night long. We left at around 5 AM and went to eat something at Everest. Of course after eating we recharged our batteries and weren’t so sleepy so we got home well. It was really sweet because we slept all three in Ana's bed and woke up together...eat together...:(...I'm really going to miss them and these times. I know they will always be here and listen to all the crap I have in my brain and stand me as obsessed and childish as I am...but I am going to miss them and will not be able to replace them as much as the selfish me would maybe like to.

Welcome back?!

My friend Irina just returned from her Erasmus in Padova Italy. She was a Romanian/Bucharest loving person but now she had the same reaction as I always do when I return to this shithole. I don't know if it's the fact that every time I left the country I was either on holiday or simply away from home/parents/responsibilities or the fact that every time I wnet out of the airport I saw the people, the dirt and the lack inspiration the city has. I am very happy she returned because I missed her a lot and I’ll try to spend as much time as I can with her because then I'll be leaving and who knows when I’ll return. Still I hope she won't adjust back to Bucharest and get used to all the..... (I can't find the right word to explain it)... and she’ll wish to leave again. Maybe she could move to Italy, I'd rather visit her there than here :P.

The fact that she saw her return with the same eyes I see my every return proves to me that this country is hopeless and it's getting worse. I think you can't even make a difference now between gypsies and Romanians, they all look the same, dress the same, listen to the same music. If you're on the bus and you look around you one out of 10 people looks and smells decent. If they have money they don't have style or brain and if they have style and brain they are poor but willing to work and fight the system till it kills them or swallows them. I don't see a future in Romania and Romania doesn't see a future for me. That is why I decided never to return. I took this decision when I was 12, when I first saw the world over the boarders and I'm getting closer and closer to fulfilling it. The question is where…with who…in what way...as a Romanian or as a European citizen?!

Tattoo

Today I got a new tattoo. I really liked the idea and I had to do it. Even if it's maybe simple and stupid I think it's sweet. Maybe it's not the smartest thing to do but at least this one it's well hidden :P I will probably erase my lucky star in some years but at least I'll have this one left.