Terminus again

Last night I went to Terminus again with Ana. She was dancing so I thought that since I didn't go out in a while it would be a good idea to join her. And so it was :)...the other girl who was suppose to dance with her last night didn't come. Since I haven't been out in a while I had extreme energy and I was in a great dancing mood. Because it's not such a large club I got to know most of the staff...so I felt rather comfortable. I danced all night long with short brakes because I was sweating so badly that I had to drink a lot of water. The nice part is that Geo, the supervisor, paid me as if I was working that night. So not only did I get to dance however I felt like but I also got paid for this. It gives you a nice feeling when you make money for something you enjoy and would do anyway. This is a general thought, I'm not saying that I will become a dancer now :p but maybe I should make a list of the things I enjoy doing and would do even if I would be paid to...At the moment I am half dead - half alive because I also did some Tae Bo with Ana this morning...soon my body will go on stand by.

R.I.P.

Yesterday I found my little white mousy dead. I am sorry this happened she was very sweet. I think the hot weather killed her because she was a snow Siberian hamster. She bit me yesterday morning when I went to work, I think she was really sad and sick or something like that. I just hope the boy will not die too...This is my second mouse that dies…anyway the first one was a rat...but I shouldn't probably buy any rodens in the future though I really like them. Snifers!

Lolita - the she-devil

I started rereading my favorite book after I saw the movie for 50 times till now - Lolita by Vladimir Nabukov. I don't know what attracts me most about this story - the way Humbert describes the innocent body of a young girl or the fact that I would like to be one of his so imagined nymphets. The lust and power the book sends out is greater than the action presented in any love, action, romance etc. movie or book. It is unique in the way it makes you read more and more wishing to be Humbert and feel the ultimate feeling of forbidden love. The girls are described like goddesses and it makes you wish you'd be one of Humbert's sins...you'd be a fragile Lolita. I always felt attracted to forbidden and impossible love stories and even I have my own innocent sin. A sin which haunts me and which I can't explain or talk about.

I find peace and relaxation in this book as it makes me feel free and special. It makes me forget all the bad experiences and helps me puke all my memories like a bad vertigo feeling. The fact that it talks about impossible, unexacting love, that ends in a bad way proves that I am attracted to such "happy" endings.

I recommend the book to anyone searching for what lust means.