April's fool = me

Today I finished my first week at the new work place. Even if I work way more I think it is better and the atmosphere is more relaxing here. Although I've been extremely frustrated in the first days because I couldn't sleep at night thinking that I'm going to disappoint everybody and fail to do anything, it seems that I'm ok till now. I love the girls and I hope they like me too. I had to learn a lot of new stuff with which I never dealt before, but Delia is great and she has patients and explains every single detail and answers all of my sometimes stupid questions. I hope I'll work here for a long period of time because I like it a lot.

Still no word from Aarhus, Denmark. They only asked me which would be my first option on the programs. I really hope I'll get accepted because I see no future for me here and everything here makes me fell so sad and depressed that I lose all my powers, hopes and dreams...and I don't want to become a plain, sad person. I don't think Romania in general has a future because everyday I can see people from my generation or younger who have a narrow mentality and they are more and more ignorant...and a country like this one doesn't need that. Anyway it's just sad to see and leave surrounded by fraud, falsity and ignorance.

But I hope better days will come for me. :)

The NATO summit starts this week, actually tomorrow. I won’t be working this week because the work place is in the restricted area so it would be difficult for me to get there. Very important powerful people are going to be in Bucharest these days. I hope I’ll get some photos from the internet to show some images of Bucharest during the summit. All I can say is that the communist spirit is still in us and we like to do everything as in the old days, the main routs of the presidents have been cleaned, rearranged, flowers have been planted, everything has been newly painted etc. This is lame I know, but it’s part of the culture. Anyway this is an important event and hosting it brings us great honor and maybe puts us on the map a little bit.

Chicago in Bucharest

Yesterday I went to see the musical Chicago with Ana and Raluca, the Romanian version of the musical. It was pretty nice though i can't say it compares with a Broadway show. But it was fun and relaxing and all in all a nice way to spend a Sunday evening.

Then we went for a drink in Laptaria lui Enache. We didn't stay long because we were all pretty tired and we all had work the next day.

"Hell" - "Heaven"

I heard something very interesting these days. I can't remember if I read it somewhere or someone told me this, because of my extremely short memory, but I kept in mind the important part. The question was what ”hell" and "heaven" represent!? Do they exist as afterlife ways of "living" or are they just religious symbols, used to scare people and make them obey some human made up rules? Well, I heard this really interesting theory that really struck me. Hell should not be thought as something that will be but as something that it is. Do you know those people that are really old and sick, see their children and relatives die...but they keep on living, crawling on the face of the earth, carrying their last days as burdens?! Well this is hell. This is how you pay for the life that you have lived. Hell and heaven are nothing but the ways in which you spend your last days and the way you die. When you are old you pick up the fruits from the trees you planted and so very much tried to take care of during life. You pick up the fruits of your own actions. Somehow I find this theory very smart. But than again, what can "hell" and "heaven" represent for those who do not get to live their lives to the end. Those who die as infants or very young in different accidents. Do they pay with their own lives in order to punish their loved ones...or...do they pay for their own mistakes from another life!?